squash that

i stood at the train station, awash in the hum of resting giants. the wind licked my back and the sun beat down on my back, warming my head. i wondered if the idea of the color spectra was birthed from similar circumstances, when a man with black hair tried to figure why his head got so toasty. if it did happen to come about that way, how come said color-spectra-finder-outer took the initiative to figure that shit out? did he really dissect light beams into colors? roygbiv...he even got a cool, easy to remember pneumonic for his stupid discovery. and how come i -- with the same hair color and same meteorological muse -- instead just stand immobile, holding an 18-inch squash.

oh, the squash. i forgot about the squash. my sister had sent it home with me to give to our parents, a veritable "ha! look what i can do, ma!" to prove the color of her thumbs (read: green {red green?}) after an abysmal tomato crop. mom and dad have meanwhile dedicated a small patch of dirt in our backyard to a little vegetable garden, inciting a competition amongst the family. my parents pack their little 2-meter area with so many damn plants that none of them have room to grow, encroaching on top of each other, an arborous gentrification. the strawberries have to make room for the tomatoes, which are feeling the heat from the plums. nonetheless, they've put out a rather impressive harvest of tomatoes and oft ridicule lucy for her crappy vegetables, conveniently ignoring the sunlight that san francisco invariably misses out on.

sunlight....

that damned color spectra taunts me again!

my darling we will get there

so by request of a certain tall creepy blonde, i guess i'll post more. and since apparently coherence is overrated, here goes a list!

a: the new joanna newsom album, "Ys," is wonderful. 5 songs of excellently written, performed, and arranged songs. she has a great supporting cast this time around: van dyke parks does the arrangements, steve albini records it, and jim o'rourke mixes the record. despite the other personnel though, joanna still remains firmly the focus and her songs are beautiful. the songs don't feel forced and the arrangements really let joanna shine. and any album with a banjo/harp/violin section is cool with me.

b: i'm really excited for september to end

c: living in this apartment and eating the (mostly) crappycrap that i have, i've really begun to value the virtues of fresh fruit. the taste, the non-frozenness, texture, its really pretty great. i still have problems buying bananas, because i like them on the greener side but they get ripe so fast in the heat i have to eat 5 of them in a day or else i won't eat them at all. a yellow-to-brown banana is not whats hot on the streets, especially not on mine

d: weitzel you are hella tall and hella slutty

e: buying birthday gifts is really hard, especially for my mom. she has very few personal interests and anything she needs she has, but i still need to find something. its the token of thought, you know? i wish a pat on the back and a "thanks for birthing me" would be sufficient, but i don't think that is passable currency for birthday presents these days.

f: LA has been exceedingly hot of late. go away, sun, i hate you

"god only knows"

thanks for keeping me company

--

I may not always love you
But long as there are stars above you
You never need to doubt it
Ill make you so sure about it

God only knows what Id be without you

If you should ever leave me
Though life would still go on believe me
The world could show nothing to me
So what good would living do me

God only knows what Id be without you

God only knows what Id be without you

If you should ever leave me
Well life would still go on believe me
The world could show nothing to me
So what good would living do me

God only knows what Id be without you
God only knows what Id be without you
God only knows
God only knows what Id be without you
God only knows what Id be without you
God only knows
God only knows what Id be without you
God only knows what Id be without you
God only knows
God only knows what Id be without you
God only knows what Id be without you
God only knows
God only knows what Id be without you
God only knows what Id be without you
God only knows
God only knows what Id be without you
God only knows what Id be without you
God only knows
God only knows what Id be without you